I am a mother, a widow, a worker, a runner, a lover of words, a worrier, a person finding my way in life after loss....
I wanted to title this blog “Fear” but I was afraid no one would read it :). There is so much fear in our world right now – who wants to read about more? I am not here to fan the fear or add to yours. Instead I hope to share what I am discovering … More UNWANTED GUEST
This has been a year of too much and not enough. Too much Covid, too much controversy, too much death, too much gone wrong. And so much unknown. This is also the year of not enough. Too little PPE, too little known, too little truth. Empty food bins, empty wallets. Vacant buildings and deserted streets. … More Empty Space
Ring that bell, stomp your feet, clap your hands (wash ’em before and after please), sing out loud – make some noise! Can you hear me? This poem of gratitude is for you. Late night rounds, early morning rounds – I know what you do. All that you do. Medical staff and support staff too. … More MAKE SOME NOISE
Clearly social distancing is a challenge for these guys. If you do not recognize this breed, they are Vizslas, otherwise know as velcro dogs. They want to be on you, next to you, smooshing you, and of course, crushing each other. I have oodles of pictures like this with humans in them as well, on … More CONNECTED
Over two feet of snow was dumped on our little hill this week. The weather app on my phone declared a red banner storm alert –Winter Storm Warning!! So we prepared. Shovels were lined up on the deck and front stoop. I made sure we all had snow scrapers in our cars. Then we hunkered … More WINTER WARNING
My original title for this blog, which has been swirling around in my head for months, was Look Forward. But like so many times over the past many months when I have failed to write – the push and pull of what I want to say, what I feel, leaves me confused. So I … More Left Behind
I had a run in with a bull last summer. Really it was more of a “run from.” See that big guy with the yellow tag on his ear? He’s our local bull. One day this past June I volunteered to help walk the perimeter of the pasture and check the fence. This particular part … More Muscle Memory (Jump The Fence)
Sometimes you have to be creative when you need to hold it together. You have to fix the fence with whatever nail or screw you can find and get it done. It isn’t perfect, nothing matches, the repairs happened over the years, but it works. In this case, the fence stays up and the horses … More Hold It Together
If only it was this easy. Pull a string and help is on the way. You know, good help, the kind that is actually helpful. I saw this in the bathroom at physical therapy where I am receiving very good help (finally – woohoo) for the pain in my face and jaw. I chuckled as … More HELP IS ON THE WAY
I went missing – from this blog and more. I haven’t shown up here to write and I faded from friends and activities. But I want to come back. I am figuring out how. I wonder how I will do? Grief brought me to this blog. I was never more present with myself then when … More The Missing
WIDOW WONDERINGS 